'Rap God' Eminem Recalls How He Almost Dissed Kanye, Lil Wayne On 'Recovery'
Eminem opened up in an interview Monday with Power 106's Big Boy, offering up some revealing details about his confidence struggles as an artist during during his brief exit from music a few years ago. The 41-year-old told the station that while he was out of the rap game, he thought about verbally attacking some of the hottest MCs at the time, which included the likes of Kanye West and Lil Wayne. He later addressed these thoughts on his 2010 album, "Recovery."
"When I made the record 'Talkin' 2 Myself,' what I was basically talking about [was] with the time period that I was away," Eminem said. "I was kind of watching what was going on in the game and it was like anything that was hot at that moment or anybody who was really killing shit at that moment I felt like-I felt so bad about myself and the music that I was creating, that I felt like I started to turn into a hater. And it wasn't just-you know, singling Kanye and Wayne out at that time period, I mean they were the one's who were the killing it the most to me. And it hurt. I'd pop the CD in and be like, 'Fuck man, I'm not doing this no more.' I felt like I came very close to like, for me it would have been career suicide because I felt like, 'I should make a song just dissing everybody who's doing in it the game right now.'"
In "Talkin' To Myself," Eminem references both rappers, saying "Hatred was flowing through my veins, on the verge of going insane," he raps, "I almost made a song dissing Lil Wayne."
When asked if he ever wrote down any lyrics about the rappers, Em made it clear he never acted on his feelings.
"I just had the thoughts, just walking around the studio," he said. "I think that deep down I just wasn't happy with myself, man. I knew that there were some really dark moments in there. When I think about how my thought process was when I was high a lot, it wasn't good, man, and it certainly wasn't me 'cause I'm not even that kind of person."
You can check out Em's full interview with Big Boy, which also covered drug use and his brief breaks from music, here.
The 41-year-old passed country singer George Strait for the mark after "MMLP2" hit 2 million records sold last week, giving Em a record sales total of 44.9 million. Strait has sold 44.89 million records in his 30-years music career. It should be noted, however, that Strait's carrer started before the inception of Nielsen SoundScan data.
All of the "Rap God's" albums have now sold more than 2 million records, with the first "Marshall Mathers LP" leading the way with 10.8 million units sold, Billboard reports.
Eminem also recently secured his 50th Billboard Hot 100 song with "Headlights." The track, which features fun.'s Nate Reuss, debuted at number 86 on the chart.